things have been going well since my last post. Perhaps that’s the reason for not writing, When things are good you just want to live it. Of course, there have been hard times, but I feel better than I have in a while. I’d sunk into a couple of routines, turned them into habits and forgotten that (something I read the other day) ‘most people think happiness is about gaining something, but it’s not. It’s about getting rid of the darkness you acquire’. It’s easy, when you start making more decisions for yourself- where you live, where you work, to start thinking this is the way that it is. I like to prepare myself to think in other ways. A big thing for me is diet, I made the change to eat healthier almost a year ago ,- I’ve been a vegetarian for 8 years now, so it was all about cutting out processed sugars mostly, as I had a pretty low grease-fat diet beforehand. And while I eat healthy when I’m out, when I’m home I eat so simple (mostly vegie patties and avo for dinner). There’s no one to nag me to get back on track, and it can get pretty gloomy cooking for one- uninspiring and can get pretty bland. So perhaps it’s time that I think it’s time I made a conscious effort to bring veggies back.
The more I read, the more I believe that what you eat doesn’t just effect your body, it effects your mood. I rarely eat dairy, already drink almond milk and have soy yoghurt- but perhaps it’s the time for the transition… dundunDUN veganism? Right now it’d just be removing cheese from my diet and a lot of other sweet snacks I consume without thinking. The hardest part? Actually preparing food. Thinking in advance because if you’re out and getting peckish you need more knowledge/ thought about what you consume before you grab a cheeky thing off the shelf. So I’ve been starting small, cooking veggies and collating small dishes. Using nuttelex (a vegan spread) and olive oil seems a good start. Dairy goes through a lot of processing, and another thing I’m wary of as a vegetarian is how these animals are treated.
The other day I was reading and I came across the following “If I am a witch, then so be it, I said. And I took to eating black things – huitlacoche, coffee, dark chiles, the bruised part of fruit, the darkest, blackest things to make me hard and strong.” I like the strength that comes from it, but in most ways it reminds me of my teen years “then so be it, I said. And I took to smoking cigarettes, things to make me look hard and strong” when really they didn’t change who I was and the statement is more of a retaliation than anything. I think it’s time I shied away from the teenager in me who still slightly resonates with that. Fresh, colourful fruits and vegetables for me. Happy spring all! x